At times I feel as though I look like a little boy. I go to school and compare myself to other girls, and it's rather depressing. The fact that I feel that I can only truly feel feminine or beautiful if I have wonderful hair, makeup, and contacts. Although I don't regret shaving the side of my head, I do at times feel as though I can't truly feel pretty without both sides, shoulder length and curled to the point where it's damaged. I feel as though I'll always have to wear contacts, because glasses make me feel self conscious. Do I look like a girl someone would acknowledge? If I don't wear makeup, will they notice how awful my skin looks? If I wear a t-shirt, skinny jeans, and hightop sneakers - would they think I'm trying to be something I'm not?
Others tend to place labels on me due to the fact that I underdress and at times dress a certain way. The word 'hipster' is one word I can't stand. Because I wear large glasses, or wear certain things doesn't make me one. That word is overused and overrated. People expect me to be the party, drinking, wild type because of my outgoing and social personality. People expect me to pierce my skin, and/or listen to certain types of music because I shaved the side of my head.
Since when did being human mean having to have a label suddenly? Since when did I compare myself to others and overlook myself? Image is something that still provokes insecurity. I'm not anything. I'm just a junior, that can be whatever I want to be a certain day. I'm just any musician that listens and sings any genre of music. I won't have to apply myself to one specific idea, because then my life would be based on wanting to look/act/feel a certain way - when being myself is good enough. Currently listening to:
