I had a conversation with a person about musicians in general. An interesting view on the topic was brought up. He told me that every musician had an emotional issue. Whether being bipolar to emotionally unstable. He mentioned that without that emotional baggage or low self esteem, musicians couldn't necessarily be musicians. At first I disagreed of course, taking a slight offence to his opinion, especially since I fall under the category. However, I looked at this in another perspective. I sort of agreed.
I am currently constructing a research paper of my choice in AP Language and Comp. I thought momentarily and decided to settle with Marilyn Monroe. My topic was how society had molded her, and how her image is misleading. She, herself is a musician. Marilyn wasn't typically well-known for her singing talent, however, she had dealt with emotional struggles and self-loathing. Most people generally overlook that aspect of Marilyn Monroe. She seemed perfect: beautiful, talented, and had sex appeal. However, she had severe depression and the fear of abandonment. Now, there is another star that personally inspires me. She was completely hated and disliked due to her lack in acting. Her gap was ridiculed and throughout her years in fame, under the lime light - laid a struggling teenager. Demi Lovato is one star that I particularly love. Considering she brought herself into treatment and went public about her issues.
Lastly, I reflected on myself. It was true. I have unstable emotions I can be at my happiest moment and have it completely torn down to depression in a matter of seconds. I admit without the insecurity, depression, and layers of low self esteem - I couldn't put meaning into a song. There wasn't a single song that didn't deal with my own personal experiences and struggles. This also ties in with society. How naive we all are to overlook each other. We all make assumptions and we all are hypocrites. But it all boils down to one thing: whether you are under the label of anything: cheerleader, football player, wealthiest family, highest educator - we all have problems, and we all judge those problems based on the stereotypical labels.
One reason I am drawn to music, is not only due to the passion and goals, but mostly because when you feel lonely, obscured, withdrawn - you have something to keep you company. When misery is your companion, music is an escape to that depression. Many artists take fame and music as a joke, when the only joke is that society allows them to do so.
